Feyre’s Song “More Than Survive” | The Unofficial ACOTAR Musical
THE CAST:
FEYRE: Hally Smith (@ hallyrosesmith)
CREATIVE TEAM:
Music & Lyrics by Annika Stenstedt
Orchestration by Leon Thomasian
Art by Lani Sahulga
Music Direction Noah Sunday-Lefkowitz, Annika Stenstedt, Vijay Nazareth
Mixed & Mastered by Leon Thomasian
Produced, Directed, Cello Solo by Vijay Nazareth
LYRICS:
ANY PATH I TAKE, ANY ROAD I MAKE,
IT ALWAYS LEADS ME BACK TO THIS.
TO THE ENDLESS COLD,
TO THE WISHES BURIED IN SNOW…
EVERY BITE I TAKE, EVERY OATH I’D BREAK
TAKES THE SOUR TASTE OF SELFISHNESS
BUT WHAT LIFE IS THERE TO LIVE IN THIS FROZEN TABLEAU?
OH MY FATHER’S LUCK
RAN OUT AND SUNK
WITH ALL OUR FORTUNE
AND I’VE CARVED EACH TREE
WITH MY MOTHER’S PLEA
LIKE I CARVE EVERY MEAGER PORTION
BUT I LEARNED TO HUNT, TO HIDE,
TO PUT AN ARROW THROUGH A RABBIT’S EYE;
MY SISTERS’ HANDS COULD NEVER
BEAR THE BRUNT
TO PLUCK A SPARROW KNOWING IT’S ALL I COULD FIND
AND I DON’T WANNA DIE, SO I
CONSIST OF CALLOUSES AND SORROW
NUMB TO MY JOY AND MY BORROWED TIME
AND EVERYDAY WE WAKE AND GET BY
BUT IF I COULD SPARE A BREATH TO HOPE,
AND IF I STOOD ON A SAFER SLOPE
I’D WONDER AT THE COLOR OF THE NIGHT SKY
IF MY FAMILY COULD BE SAFE AND HEALTHY
IF I WAS FREE TO BE MYSELF, EVEN ONE NIGHT
I DON’T HAVE TO RUN OR FEAR OR FIGHT
I WOULD FINALLY DO MORE THAN SURVIVE
THOUGH THE SHADOWS CREEP
AND MY FEAR RUNS DEEP
IF I LEAVE, WE WON’T LAST ANOTHER WEEK
AND NO PETTY CARVING OR PRETTY FACE COULD REPLACE
EVERY DEER I’VE CAUGHT,
EVERY LOG I’VE CHOPPED,
EVERY PENNY SAVED FOR A ROSY CHEEK
SO I’LL SELL MY SOUL, AND I’LL NEVER KNOW WHAT I’VE LOST
BUT MY SISTERS ARE ALL I HAVE
AND MY FATHER, THOUGH HE STUMBLES,
IS A PROUD AND GENTLE MAN
AND I LOVE THEM THOUGH I HATE THEM
FOR THE THING THAT I’VE BECOME
FOR THE PROMISE THAT I’VE KEPT,
THAT I WILL KEEP UNTIL IT’S DONE
IN OUR MOTHER’S BED I CAN PRETEND WE’RE INNOCENT AND FREE
HOW CAN WE BE?
WHEN THE WORLD TAKES ALL OUR CHANCES?
BUT IF I COULD SPARE A BREATH TO HOPE,
AND IF I STOOD ON A SAFER SLOPE
I’D WONDER AT THE COLOR OF THE NIGHT SKY
IF MY FAMILY COULD BE SAFE AND HEALTHY
IF I WAS FREE TO BE MYSELF EVEN ONE NIGHT
I DON’T HAVE TO RUN OR FEAR OR FIGHT
I WOULD FINALLY DO MORE THAN SURVIVE
I’D TRAVEL ALL THE LAND, THE SKY, AND SEA
I’D TRAVEL ‘TIL I FIND A PLACE LIKE ME
WHERE I CAN BREATHE WITH OPEN EYES
AND SEE THE STARS WITH NO DISGUISE:
A PLACE WHERE I COULD BE ALIVE
OR MAYBE I WOULD STAY AND REST MY FEET.
I’D PAINT AWAY THE DAY AND JUST REPEAT,
OR MAYBE OPEN MY HEART WIDE,
AND MAYBE–WHO KNOWS?
OH IF I
I’D WONDER AT THE COLOR OF THE NIGHT SKY
I WOULD SMELL THE SICKLY SWEETEST FLOWERS
AND PAINT THEM FOR A THOUSAND HOURS
AND NEVER HAVE TO RUN OR FEAR OR FIGHT
I’D LET THE LIGHT AND SHADOW IN
AND I’D NEVER BE ALONE AGAIN!
BUT THERE’S A RUSTLE IN THE BRUSH
I SEE THE DOE AND ALL GOES HUSH
IT’S THIN BUT MEATY,
IT WOULD FEED MY FAMILY FOR A WEEK AT LEAST
BUT SOMETHING ELSE IS GREEDY;
GOLDEN EYES THAT GLOW AND SHOW A BEAST–
A WOLF–
IS THIS THE END?
HE’LL KILL THE DEER AND KILL ME TOO
AND WE’RE TOO FAR INTO THE WOODS FOR THEM TO FIND
I ALWAYS THOUGHT I’D HAVE MORE TIME
I HAVEN’T LIVED ENOUGH OR LOVED ENOUGH TO DIE
AND SO I DRAW MY SINGLE ARROW MADE OF ASH
AND PRAY TO JUST SURVIVE
FOR ONE WHOLE LIFE
NO!
I CAN’T DIE HERE
I CAN’T DIE HERE
I WON’T DIE–
I POINT THE ARROW AT ITS–